9 mo. later

things change, and move faster than realize. I was just perusing the old post… and it’s always funny how I look back on what I’ve written and it feels so far away. What seemed important 1 year ago doesn’t anymore. It seems useless to care about much of anything when I know that eventually I won’t care about it down the road… or at least I won’t care as much. Obama is fine… but change takes so long; “Yes we can” still feels more like “Maybe we will, someday.”
McKinley, and her Gracie and the Atom are a distant memory. I wish I could re-write that musical with her… i feel like there is a great skeleton of a story there waiting to be finished. I have cycled through Kate Nash in the last year and currently need to get my hands on some CocoRosie CD’s.
The books Why We Believe What We Believe, and How We Decide (and i guess A Theory of Everything -Wilbur) have left their marks on my psyche and I’ll carry them with me from now on. There is little non-fiction that I can imagine bearing right now, and with my job at the library, a glut of poor fiction that I slog through.
The theater has been open 2 weeks officially, and any sense of rhythm or normalcy has yet to show it’s head. I still see potential, but don’t quite know how we’ll get there.
I still can’t believe I have a son… and he’s 7 and a first grader! wow.
Vienna charms me in ways I didn’t think she could and matures too quickly everyday.
We are lucky to have these great 2 kids.
And 9 years of marriage in 6 days. Some things are forever, and change very little. Still we have become such different people than the kids we were 10+ years ago before this relationship began. What a gift.
All right… late night musings over. Bed beckons.

Brad Clark Nov 13, 2009 12:37am

Brad Clark Nov 13, 2009 12:37am

From Brittian Bullock

Sensual Jesus
Most of my life I seem to have gathered a salon of friends teetering on the narrow straights between faith and doubt. Many could easily second the sentiments of a friend who recently told me he has spent the last year desperately hungering for God, only to conclude that it’s hard to have a relationship with a friend who doesn’t talk back. This is troubling.

Almost equally troubling is the tactlessness with which the “faithful” reply. I’m keeping a list of all the pithy and pointless, utterly inane and useless pieties that I hear spat back at doubters. It’s not that the comments don’t come from a helpful place, a good place, but rather that they all tend to discount the sacredness of the nebulous space that faithful doubters find ourselves in.

But the Dark Night of the Soul, the cry of “My God, why have you forsaken me?” has a rich history, to say the least. The founder of the faiths final words are ones of questions…not of certitude… Many of the Christian mystics, who affirm God’s intimate presence, have pointed to these intense moments of question and absence as the very crucible of God’s faithfulness. It is no surprise those times of deep suffering and love cause growth. However what is surprising is the feeling of helplessness and often silent hopelessness that goes with it. Still, there is a vast array of experience and theology along the lines of what the orthodox call, kenosis—or emptying. Make no mistake; this is exactly what doubt feels like—emptiness. That is the word one hears most often listening to faithful doubters… “I feel empty”.

It is here that the mystical tradition can offer us some help…They would offer that this sense of emptiness, this feeling of forsakenness, comes from a place of union with God. As Pascal hinted at, the void we feel is simply the evidence of object that was once (and shall be again) there. The absence is a sign of the presence.

This is sort of like when I would visit Jessie as we were long distance dating. The weekend was wonderful, but the week after was simply hell—it was even worse than if we hadn’t seen each other. In that case the feeling of absence and of longing was evidence for the having been present. And it was the drive to once again be with her. This tense place, of having not yet fully realized intimacy, is actually one of the most exciting (though frustrating) relational places we can be.

I guess what I’m saying is something that I deeply believe…those places…those areas of intense longing, and unfulfilled or perhaps even disappointed silences are far closer to the divine presence than we imagine. They are the space of faithful doubt—where we long to touch his hands, his side, and there…there in that place we do…

I’m not saying one should, or does, exist there forever…but the lover who knows this place for a time is more inclined to cling to the arms of the beloved all the tighter in the journey ahead.

thank you 94.7 new local music hour

Artist: McKinley
Album/musical: Gracie and the Atom
Song: Forest Fire
http://www.mckinley-music.com/mckinley-audio.php
Hope I’ll get to go to the musical debut the end of Jan! Anybody else wanna come?

– (Negative)

Warning; just need to vent some feelings:

I’m not thrilled that I have 2 cars.
I’m frustrated that I have 2 old cars that leak, no garage, and it’s been raining a lot.

I not feeling grateful for 2 jobs that I enjoy.
I’m mad that I’m getting dropped from the 3rd one.

I’m glad that I’ll start some classes in January. Hopeful forward motion.
But I’m unsatisfied that sufficiency seem forever away.

I AM thankful for a great wife, and 2 great kids… So not EVERYTHING sucks right now.

Victim of the “economy”?

I was informed yesterday that as of the end of January I will no longer be working for the Salem church. If anyone keeping up here has any connections for alternative employment drop me a line.

3 more days

“What’s my crime?” Ralph Nader asked a reporter the other day.
“Persistence? Stamina? Having done more for the American people in 40 years than McCain or Obama?”
No, Ralph.
That’s no crime.
That’s why you should be President.
Because for the past seven months — as you have your entire adult life — you have busted it for the American people.
And now, a new generation of voters is listening to your message of shifting the power from the corporations back into the hands of the American people.
As Maria Recio of the Miami Herald put it yesterday “Nader’s anti-establishment, anti-corporate message resonates with young people, who dominate his Washington headquarters and his 35 field offices.”
Over the next four days before the election, your loyal supporters are going to bust it for you.
We’re firing on all cylinders.
All across this country.
To get out the message — there is an Independent alternative to the two corporate candidates on the ballot on Tuesday.
And his name is Ralph Nader.

You Must See

Manufacturing Consent… (truth)
An Unreasonable Man… (justice)
The Corportation… (the american way)

3 Documentaries that help you understand why some people say, “If you aren’t angry, You’re asleep.”

Worth my time…

…to actually read
‘The United States Has Essentially a One-Party System’

The linguist and public intellectual Noam Chomsky has long been a critic of American consumerism and imperialism. SPIEGEL spoke to him about the current crisis of capitalism, Barack Obama’s rhetoric and the compliance of the intellectual class.

SPIEGEL: Professor Chomsky, cathedrals of capitalism have collapsed, the conservative government is spending its final weeks in office with nationalization plans. How does that make you feel?

A happy purchaser of a new iPhone. “Consumption distracts people. You cannot control your own population by force, but it can be distracted by consumption.”
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A happy purchaser of a new iPhone. “Consumption distracts people. You cannot control your own population by force, but it can be distracted by consumption.”
Chomsky: The times are too difficult and the crisis too severe to indulge in schadenfreude. Looking at it in perspective, the fact that there would be a financial crisis was perfectly predictable, its general nature, if not its magnitude. Markets are always inefficient.

SPIEGEL: What exactly did you anticipate?

Chomsky: In the financial industry, as in other industries, there are risks that are left out of the calculation. If you sell me a car, we have perhaps made a good bargain for ourselves. But there are effects of this transaction on others, which we do not take into account. There is more pollution, the price of gas goes up, there is more congestion. Those are the external costs of our transaction. In the case of financial institutions, they are huge.

SPIEGEL: But isn’t it the task of a bank to take risks?

Chomsky: Yes, but if it is well managed, like Goldman Sachs, it will cover its own risks and absorb its own losses. But no financial institution can manage systemic risks. Risk is therefore underpriced, and there will be more risk taken than would be prudent for the economy. With government deregulation and the triumph of financial liberalization, the dangers of systemic risks, the possibility of a financial tsunami, sharply increased.

SPIEGEL: But is it correct to only put the blame on Wall Street? Doesn’t Main Street, the American middle class, also live on borrowed money which may or may not be paid back?

Chomsky: The debt burden of private households is enormous. But I would not hold the individual responsible. This consumerism is based on the fact that we are a society dominated by business interests. There is massive propaganda for everyone to consume. Consumption is good for profits and consumption is good for the political establishment.

SPIEGEL: How does it benefit politicians when the populace drives a lot, eats a lot and goes shopping a lot?

Chomsky: Consumption distracts people. You cannot control your own population by force, but it can be distracted by consumption. The business press has been quite explicit about this goal.

SPIEGEL: A while ago you called America “the greatest country on earth.” How does that fit together with what you’ve been saying?

Chomsky: In many respects, the United States is a great country. Freedom of speech is protected more than in any other country. It is also a very free society. In America, the professor talks to the mechanic. They are in the same category.

SPIEGEL: After travelling through the United States 170 years ago, Alexis de Tocqueville reported, “the people reign over the American political world as God rules over the universe.” Was he a dreamer?

Chomsky: James Madison’s position at the Constitutional Convention was that state power should be used “to protect the minority of the opulent against the majority.” That is why the Senate has only a hundred members who are mostly rich and were given a great deal of power. The House of Representatives, with several hundred members, is more democratic and was given much less power. Even liberals like Walter Lippmann, one of the leading intellectuals of the 20th century, was of the opinion that in a properly functioning democracy, the intelligent minority, who should rule, have to be protected from “the trampling and the roar of the bewildered herd.” Among the conservatives, Vice President Dick Cheney just recently illustrated his understanding of democracy. He was asked why he supports a continuation of the war in Iraq when the population is strongly opposed. His answer was: “So?”

SPIEGEL: “Change” is the slogan of this year’s presidential election. Do you see any chance for an immediate, tangible change in the United States? Or, to use use Obama’s battle cry: Are you “fired up”?

Chomsky: Not in the least. The European reaction to Obama is a European delusion.

SPIEGEL: But he does say things that Europe has long been waiting for. He talks about the trans-Atlantic partnership, the priority of diplomacy and the reconciling of American society.

Chomsky: That is all rhetoric. Who cares about that? This whole election campaign deals with soaring rhetoric, hope, change, all sorts of things, but not with issues.

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SPIEGEL: Do you prefer the team on the other side: the 72 year old Vietnam veteran McCain and Sarah Palin, former Alaskan beauty queen?

Chomsky: This Sarah Palin phenomenon is very curious. I think somebody watching us from Mars, they would think the country has gone insane.

SPIEGEL: Arch conservatives and religious voters seem to be thrilled.

Chomsky: One must not forget that this country was founded by religious fanatics. Since Jimmy Carter, religious fundamentalists play a major role in elections. He was the first president who made a point of exhibiting himself as a born again Christian. That sparked a little light in the minds of political campaign managers: Pretend to be a religious fanatic and you can pick up a third of the vote right away. Nobody asked whether Lyndon Johnson went to church every day. Bill Clinton is probably about as religious as I am, meaning zero, but his managers made a point of making sure that every Sunday morning he was in the Baptist church singing hymns.

SPIEGEL: Is there nothing about McCain that appeals to you?

Chomsky: In one aspect he is more honest than his opponent. He explicitly states that this election is not about issues but about personalities. The Democrats are not quite as honest even though they see it the same way.

SPIEGEL: So for you, Republicans and Democrats represent just slight variations of the same political platform?

Chomsky: Of course there are differences, but they are not fundamental. Nobody should have any illusions. The United States has essentially a one-party system and the ruling party is the business party.

SPIEGEL: You exaggerate. In almost all vital questions — from the taxation of the rich to nuclear energy — there are different positions. At least on the issues of war and peace, the parties differ considerably. The Republicans want to fight in Iraq until victory, even if that takes a 100 years, according to McCain. The Democrats demand a withdrawal plan.

Chomsky: Let us look at the “differences” more closely, and we recognize how limited and cynical they are. The hawks say, if we continue we can win. The doves say, it is costing us too much. But try to find an American politician who says frankly that this aggression is a crime: the issue is not whether we win or not, whether it is expensive or not. Remember the Russian invasion of Afghanistan? Did we have a debate whether the Russians can win the war or whether it is too expensive? This may have been the debate at the Kremlin, or in Pravda. But this is the kind of debate you would expect in a totalitarian society. If General Petraeus could achieve in Iraq what Putin achieved in Chechnya, he would be crowned king. The key question here is whether we apply the same standards to ourselves that we apply to others.

SPIEGEL: Who prevents intellectuals from asking and critically answering these questions? You praised the freedom of speech in the United States.

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Chomsky: The intellectual world is deeply conformist. Hans Morgenthau, who was a founder of realist international relations theory, once condemned what he called “the conformist subservience to power” on the part of the intellectuals. George Orwell wrote that nationalists, who are practically the whole intellectual class of a country, not only do not disapprove of the crimes of their own state, but have the remarkable capacity not even to see them. That is correct. We talk a lot about the crimes of others. When it comes to our own crimes, we are nationalists in the Orwellian sense.

SPIEGEL: Was there not, and is there not — in the United States and worldwide — loud protest against the Iraq war?

Chomsky: The protest against the war in Iraq is far higher than against the war in Vietnam. When there were 4,000 American deaths in Vietnam and 150,000 troops deployed, nobody cared. When Kennedy invaded Vietnam in 1962, there was just a yawn.

SPIEGEL: To conclude, perhaps you can offer a conciliatory word about the state of the nation?

Chomsky: The American society has become more civilized, largely as a result of the activism of the 1960s. Our society, and also Europe’s, became freer, more open, more democratic, and for many quite scary. This generation was condemned for that. But it had an effect.

SPIEGEL: Professor Chomsky, we thank you for this interview.

Interview conducted by Gabor Steingart

Noam on Nader

As Noam Chomsky put it this week:

“The United States effectively has a one-party system, the business party, with two factions, Republicans and Democrats.”

OK not specifically Nader. In and article on the Chomsky website he was voting for Nader in 2004. Tomorrow, a more recent article.

Master Debaters

So I’m watching “rigged” Rep/Dem debate on PBS right now (see earlier post). Man do I feel like I’m being talked down to. Give me a short straight answer, if you need to put it in context you should be able to do that within the 1 minute time limit… if you can’t, refer me to go in depth on your website.
I am struck by how clear and straight forward the issues are explained and suggested resolutions are given when Nader speaks. He has an uncanny ability to retain and analyze the past, and give a clear intelligent answer.
there is supposed to be a Nader response on his sight live. Technical difficulties… would have been interesting too see.